Hiatus

Oh my chat-ter box. So Ive been on hiatus. Sorry for abandoning you. I still cant full fill my promise to jot down everything here and for the past 2 years there was a lot of story of mine. Maybe I remembered it well and probably I almost forgot it and totally forgot it. Yeah, sometimes you could think that life was treating you well. For now, Ive completed my degree and the next after tomorrow will be my convocation day. My parents will be there. There was nothing make you happier than seeing your parents got all hyped up to attend their children's convocation. But, I was a little devastated as my degree was not first class degree.

I think I got kind of disorder something. I am really felt like sometime a loser, sometime my self esteem is really low and sometime I am really confident.

Just a random thought

Dear chat-ter-box, it has been a long time. I've been missing a lot of opportunity to write everything down here. Nothing much things to share because I don't find words to describe them all. For this time being, I've been receiving lots and lots of love. People around me sure do have a lot of love. They keep spreading positive vibes so that I am very blessed. Alhamdulillah for that. I do get distracted easily. 

In a class, if someone talk behind me for the whole class I just can't concentrate even though they have stopped. This shitty thing keeps occurring to me. Why I can't focus earnestly. And maybe that is why, my grades do not excel. Cause I don't find a way to treat this problem.

Dear future Umar dan Delisa

Today I got invitation card from my ex-housemate during diploma years..She'll get engaged and she was my junior.1 year younger and will get engaged. hoho..I was taken aback for a moment then of course I was so excited!! and a bit of envy of her. What ever it is congratulation for both of them and *cepatcepatkahwin- hee...


Lately, I've thought about marriage. My friends also did! yeah. Maybe our environment influence a lot.-plus my junior will get engaged soon-Seriously we were freaking crazy talking about that. What to do, we are 22 years old right now. Nowadays early marriage is a trend. Some got married at a younger age. Congrats for them, that were able to carry out the responsibility being someone's wife or someone's hubby. For me, even though I want to but seriously I never get ready to have that responsibility yet. Before I move to that stage of my life which is marriage,. I need to have myself prepared. Well prepared. Prepared enough to be a good wife to my Imam, and a good mother to my children.. so, to everyone out there who will start a new chapter in your life which is marriage. I hope all of you cherish your time with your friends,family and your *oppa2korea* for those kpop fans and be well prepared to be a solehah wife and mithali mom..

p/s ; Umar and Delisa. the name I cherish most!

Bismillah..

I used to write before and i stopped just because i don't feel to write any. It is not nice decision of mine. Well, for upcoming, I'll start post my-unspoken-mind-blabbering- whatever you name it here. ha ha. and seriously i knew that my grammar was so s*c*! 

life is treating me well. I've completed my diploma and continue with my degree. fortunately with all my awesome friends and we are doing physics industry course. actually it is all physics,..ha ha. that's what i like thou. -_-.

after going through all those class,assignment,studying week, right now we are battling with final examination. one paper was settling down. and there will be 4 ahead.. yes.. right now me-no-do-anything... an till then Annyeong~